Why I chose faith over fear after a late Ewing’s sarcoma recurrence

As a nurse practitioner at MD Anderson, I’d heard of case studies where Ewing’s sarcoma survivors had seen their cancer return, even way past the 10-year mark. I never thought it would happen to me. But in January 2019, after 13 years of being cancer-free, I suffered a relapse. At first, I found the news pretty demoralizing. I’d just given birth to my third child, and I worried about how I’d manage my treatment, while still being a mother to my three girls. Now that I’ve started chemotherapy again, I’ve had time to reflect on the many blessings in my life. And that has allowed me to choose faith over fear as I walk down this road again. My Ewing’s sarcoma relapse I might not have even discovered the relapse if it hadn’t been for my third daughter. I’d started experiencing severe back pain a few weeks before her due date. I attributed it to “back labor,” a very common phenomenon in late pregnancy. When the pain didn’t resolve within five days of giving birth, I went to a local emergency room. The attending physician there didn’t even do a scan, because he said I had “textbook” pyelonephritis, a type of kidney inflammation due to a bacterial infection. He prescribed antibiotics and sent me home. I finished the antibiotics a few weeks later, but the pain didn’t let up. My obstetrician ordered an ultrasound of my pelvis and kidneys. That revealed a blood clot in my inferior vena cava, which earned me a trip straight back to the emergency room. The doctor there ordered a CT scan, and that’s...